I hope you’re well…
Adjourned.. Separated.. Terminate.. the negative, society’s idiotic implements of bullet points of what to do in order to be “successful”, “rich”, “famous”, the box we must adjust to otherwise you’ll fall behind.. I have broken up with the negative cliches of this generation we endure subconsciously and consciously on a daily basis. I’ve been there, done that, wore the t-shirt, burnt flat on my face with exhaustion, I’ve felt enormously guilty of not succeeding in timeframes and so forth. The bullshit breakup is done.
From this day forward, in 2019, I will not cater to indirect, or direct unnecessary pressures in life, I will not burn myself out for anyone, I will not feel guilty for not completing a to do list, I will not listen to people who say you need to do this or that in order to achieve this or that. Again, I’m going to ignore the perfunctory negatives. This year, I want to fulfil my life of being positive, feeling positive and endure incoming ridiculously positive vibes!
Me and 2018 broke up, never getting back to looking to the past, never looking at what happened, what ifs, what should, what went right, what went wrong.. Frantically thinking of a 2019 post to write, I thought I’d just say whatever was on my mind; instead of comparing to what I’d like to achieve this year, to what I had achieved last year, I’m going with the flow.. I’ve broken up with all the cliche’s, new year new me bullshit cycle and most importantly broken up with thinking every year I should have bigger goals, bigger dreams, aim for more, to do, see more, be more.. But why not just be, live in the moment. Obviously and of course, be all that, be the best you can be, but the fixation of all of that, the added pressure, the stress, lets face it, it can be.. isn’t really living in the moment.. 2019, is to live in the moment, aim high of course, but to just be, feel free, if one day I end up in bed, eating a packet of crisps, just Netflix binging, then so be it.. I shouldn’t beat myself up, or feel guilty for giving myself time off.. The whole year, basically every month, I always worked my ass of, especially last year, I became exhausted, stressed at times, I’d always give myself pressure.. for what, no really for what?
So I’ve broken up with cliche cycles and finally I feel free. I don’t give a shit anymore if I don’t achieve extremely high goals in an unrealistic amount of time. I don’t care if I have repeated some mistakes over and over and I don’t care if my to-do isn’t done in time.. because you know what? I’m living. I’m living my life. I’m enjoying it all… I don’t want to feel any pressure, guilt, nor stress. If I achieve one goal quicker than expected, or if it taking even more than a year, then so be it! If I want to relax for a whole day, then so be it. If things don’t go to plan, or if something fails.. so be it. I’m not a bad person, it doesn’t mean I am not successful, ups and downs have no indication of how hard you word. Life isn’t perfect, it’ll never be..
This isn’t a self memo to say, hey, be lazy, don’t go the extra mile.. it’s more of self reflection in general, to stop beating myself up when shit doesn’t go my way, or done quickly, or achieved in the time frame. Life will always have its ups and downs and for once I’m going to embrace being a decent human in this world.. Mental notes have been made for personal, professional and so forth goals, but I wont beat myself up or feel shit when people judge etc.. I’ve broken up with societies idea of ‘life’, new year new me, to do lists, achievements which 99% fail in the unrealistic time frames etc.. I have broken up with dumb ass society cliches. I am free. I am living life! I am in my 20s, it’s time to embrace is fully!
Have you ever felt this way? For once, I feel amazing, stress free and happy with these adjustments.. That’s my new years res, to be happy and healthy, no matter what it looks like to others. 🙂
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